I am going crazy

going crazy.

Why can't you just call me and say hello. I know that I will see you on Tuesday. When I look at you for the first time after your trip will your eyes look different? Who will you be? Will you even know me? Will I even know you? Have you found something so much more better than me? Is that why you are not calling? Is out out sight really out of mind? Then why are you still in mine? It is so hot in here. The sun is coming in, I need darkness. I need solace. How I am supposed to know how to go on? Where do I start? I am waiting for you to walk through the door. Tell me about your day. What do you want for dinner? Look at how cute the dogs are, and the cats. They miss you. They want you...I want you. Come in through the door. Hug me and kiss me hello. Make it all ok. I want it all to be ok. This is all too real. Today is your day my love. What would you like to do? Is there any movies you want ot go see. Would you like to go sleep next to me. Come on...let's be happy. Let's be real. Let's smile and cry and laugh. Let's share this day. This day is ours. Come on....this is our life. My life, my love. Are you ever going to come again. Has she changed you. Will the love songs have more meaning now that you have met her? Where have you gone? I am here. You left me holding on to what I have left. You left me! Why?! do you know how much this hurts. I can't understand. Someone else is so lucky. Does she even know. How did she luck out? Is this her gift? Takeing you away! Took someone elses gift. Save me from this pain someone. I am going crazy. Now all I have is to stare. I stare at the TV. I stare at the walls. I stare at this screen. Take me away. Swing me into the sky. Fuck I HATE THIS!