So here I am

What can I say.....I have nothing to say.

All I know is pain.

I have no clue what is going to happen.

This is not sopposed to happen.

I am so sensitive.

I need fresh air.

I can hardly breath.

He was my beauty...He was my everything.

Laugh until I cry....Cry Until I laugh.

I must breath until my dieing breath.

How long will that take.

I just want my beauty back. I want him back.
Hold me, love me, breath next to me. Let's dream, wake up and stare at each other like we always do. Tell me your dreams. I want to be there with you. I can't be in your dreams but as long as I lay next to you I am almost there. Holding your hand as you sleep, you look so peaceful.

Right now I must try to get better. I don't know what I will do 5 mins from now....I just now I need to feel better. I am running out of breath, I am about to burst. Please hold me. Love me. I am so weak. Why...why was my love not enough? I tried my best. Mistakes made, words regretted....but always you I loved.

I will go lay against the wall now. The wall will hold me. The covers will hug me. The pain is radiating out of me. I am begging you.....please come back. I beg you. Earse the past. I will never hurt you. I can't hurt you. To see pain on your face breaks me to the very core. I can't stand to see you cry. I want to take you pain. Give it to me....I will just add it to me. If your pain goes away I will carry it for you. That way you can see how much I love you. I loveyou mure than anything. I want to die next to do. I want to live next to you. Hand in hand. I just want to know you will always be there. I knew I would love you forever until you were a grumpy old man yelling at kids to get off your lawn.